HARD TIMES | PARAMORE’S POSTPONED CONCERT IN MANILA

“I bet everybody here is FAKE HAPPY too” after Paramore announced that they have to postpone their concert in Jakarta and Manila. Lead vocalist Hayley Williams struggle with a throat and upper respiratory infection. Hayley personally apologized on Facebook regarding the cancellation of the show.

Paramore’s Manila concert is supposed to happen tonight, February 18, 2018 at MOA Arena. But because Hayley needs rest, they have decided to delay the show. But hey, hold your tickets and they’ve rescheduled the show on August 23, 2018.

I know the Filipino fans are disappointed. But instead of getting disappointed, why we not just pray and hope for Hayley to get better the soonest?

I love Paramore since 2007. One of my greatest dream is to watch their concert. But unfortunately, I can’t make it for the third time because of working abroad. But I’d like to dedicate this post to Paramore and pretend that I’m goin to watch their concert, hihihi.

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“Hard Times” Paramore Shirt | Hot Topic

Little Black Dress worn as Skirt | Thrifted

Black Creepers | Thrifted

That’s all for now and hope you like this post.

PS: Thanks to my cousin Shane for the Paramore Shirt. One of the best gift I had on my Birthday last year.

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HAIR DRESSER ESTE DISASTER

Hi Guys, hope you are all well lalo na sa mga readers ko from Philippines na sabi sa news ay nagu-ulan. Sorry ha kung mejo hindi ako updated lately. As usual, busy ako sa mga bagay-bagay. Pero madami akong nakahandang post, nasa draft lang talaga sila kasi wala din akong time para magedit at mag-proof reading (wow ha).

Taglish post muna tayo for today. Ayoko muna kasing mag-english kasi hindi ako ganong ka-inspire at ayokong pahirapan ang sarli ko hahaha. Pero seryoso, ramdam ko kasi na mas kwela kung ikwento ko ng taglish yung experience ko sa Salon nung Saturday. Yes, nagpunta ako salon kasi nga dati ko pa gustong pagupitan tong buhok ko. Nade-delay lang ng nade-delay ang plano ko kasi wala akong time tsaka nagdadalawang isip ako kasi mahal magpagupit dito sa bundok kung nasaan man ako(Papua new Guinea). Gusto ko lang naman ay magkabangs ako. Iniisip ko na antayin ko na lang ang bakasyon ko(malapit na) at doon ko na lang ipaayos. Iniisip ko din na pwede siguro kahit ako na lang maglagay ng bangs sa sarili ko kasi ginagawa ko naman yun dati pero natatakot ako. Baka kasi maupod ko nanaman ang bangs ko na parang ginamitan ng ruler kagaya ng nangyari sa akin dati, ayokong sumugal bes.

So ayun nga. Saturday is the day. Ang totoo naman talaga ay wala akong plano nun na magpagupit. Ang plano lang that day ay mag-grocery ng kailangan namin sa bahay at bumili ako ng souvenir, fridge magnet at keychain na ipapasalubong ko. Medyo nabago yung ruta namin. Dumaretso kami dito sa “known hotel” na may salon kasi gustong pagupitan ng Tita ko yung anak niya. Sabi ko papagupit na din ako. Pagpasok namin sa salon, naupo muna ako doon sa parang lobby nila. Nagiisip kasi ako kung desidido na ba talaga ako at naghanap pa ako ng picture na paggagayahan ng maggugupit just to make sure na magiging ganon yung buhok ko. Minsan na din kasi akong nagpagupit doon at nasunod naman dati yung gusto kong buhok. Napagdesisyonan na magpagupit na talaga. Naupo na ako at pinakita ko yung pic na paggagayahan.

Matagal ko ng trip ang buhok ni Hayley Williams magmula nung ni-launch nila yung video nilang “Hard Times”. Tsaka turn on ako sa mga may pa-bangs effect, ganern. Tagal na din nung huli akong nagbangs at super iksi ng buhok ko nun at medyo nagkahawig kami ni Dora the Explorer, lol. Sabi ko, pahabain ko lang ng kaunti buhok ko magbabangs talaga ulit ako kasi nga Idol ko si Hayley at gusto ko siyang i-peg.

Mabalik ako doon sa pagpapakita ng pic. Nakita na nga ng maggugupit sa akin yung picture ni Hayley. Sabi ko, “yan ganyan po may fringe, pero same length” kumbaga, kung kailangan itrim, trim lang pero hindi iiksian. Sabi nung naggugupit na kung pwede ba daw mahiram ang phone ko at magsearch siya ng buhok. May ipinakita siya na picture ng buhok na medyo layer layer. In-explain niya na need lagyan ng layer ang buhok ko para magkaroon ng volume. Sumagot na lang ako na “kayo na po ang bahala”. Nagtiwala ako kasi alam ko mas sila ang nakakaalam kasi nga hair dresser nga sila.

Sinimulan na akong gupitan. Nakita ako ang bawat buhok na nagugupit sa akin. Suguro may mga 2 inches din yon. Basta yung nile-layer ng bahagya. Siguro saglit lang akong ginupitan, wala pang 30 minutes at binlow dry na nga. Napaisip ako na bakit parang ang bilis naman ata. Not the usual time pag  ginugupitan ako. Usually kasi mga more than 30 minutes ako kapag nagpapagupit. Inisip ko na baka dina-dry lang muna saka gagamitan ng thinning scissor para numipis buhok ko at lalagyan ako ng bangs. Nung tapos na akong i-blow dry, aba, tinanggal na ni ateng ang kapa at pinapagpag niya ang mga buhok sa katawan ko. Hindi na ako nahiya magtanong sabi ko, “hindi mo ba ako lalagyan ng bangs?” Tapos sabi niya hindi daw bagay sa akin may bangs lagyan niya daw ako french bangs lang daw. Expected ko kahit yung side swept na mga pang emo pero kumuha lang siya bahagya tas ginupit niya para masabi lang na ginupit niya. Frustration level 99999999 talaga ako sa outcome kasi hindi naman ganun ang expectation ko. Isa pa, di ko naman first time maglalagay ng bangs kaya alam ko kung bagay o hinde. Hindi talaga ako natuwa kasi parang walang nangyari sa buhok ko, parang nagpablow dry lang ako sa salon, gusto ko ba e mapapansin ng tao na nagpagupit ako. Nagbayad ako ng 58 kina = Php 878 pag kinonvert (o di ba ginto?) Feeling ko nag-aksaya ako ng pera, na kaya nga ako nagpagupit para magkabangs ako. Sa frustration ko imbis na awayin ko yung naggupit sa akin, nanahimik na lang ako, hindi ako nagbigay ng tip sabay labas ng salon at nagpunta na lang ako doon sa café ng hotel para mabawasan naman kahit papano ang inis ko. Kung alam ko lang sana na ganun lang gugupitin ang buhok ko, sana inantay ko na lang na makuwi ako ng Pilipinas o ako na lang sana gumupit ng sarili kong bangs.

Eto nga pala yung outcome ng bagong hairstyle ko. O di ba parang walang nangyari, nagfly away pa. Hindi ako nilagyan ng bangs kundi HIBANGS, lol.

Me a.k.a pilit na tawa. Next time kasi wag tayo mage-expect, wag masyado atat at matuto mag-antay. MASAKIT UMASA MGA BES 😁

SWEET REVENGE

I don’t want to be my old self again when I’ve forgotten the Guy above because of my wrath. I am afraid of myself being out of control again with my emotion. Although, I prayed to Him to give me wisdom and strength before I bent out of shape, I failed Him. I had this regret, “hindi ko na lang sana pinatulan”. I tried to deny the monster in me, but I couldn’t help it. Pinili kong manahimik at umiwas sa lahat ng naririnig ko, ’cause I know that it is the right thing to do. Pero paano kung mapuno ako sa katahimikan ko?

Here’s what happened:

I know my friends out there know what I am talking about here. I’ve reached my boiling point because someone messaged me on Facebook using my ex boyfriend’s identity. I stop communicating with him for a long time. We’ve been together for how many years so I know that it’s not him. I said to stop messaging me but she didn’t. I know from the start who it is. There’s only one person that I know who will do this. I am not stupid, I know how to play this game. The fake account still keeps on sending me message, asking for the email address and password of the old FB Account that me and my ex boyfriend using when we’re still in the relationshipshit. How annoyingly that she’s forcing me to do so. To tell you honestly, after the break up with my ex, I did not bother to log in to that account, EVER AGAIN. I’ve forgotten everything so how could I? I keep on telling her off to stop pestering me but she keeps on asking the same question all over again and started saying things about me. I ask the fake account, “why were you asking?” and she said that she wanted to deactivate the account so people in their lives won’t be able to see it and they already have new chapter in their lives. And because of that account, they’re always arguing. Well who cares? I am much more cared about how me and my family gonna survive everyday, what clothes I am goin’ to wear, and how I am going to feed my cats. Is she serious with what they’re calling new chapter? If they have new chapter then they shouldn’t be get affected with the past, they shouldn’t be bother with an old account. She even accused me of ruining their relationship and my ex wasted how many years of his life being with me. Do they really know what they’re talking about? In my entire life, I’ve NEVER think of getting involved with someone else’s relationship. In fact, I am more use to being cheated rather than being a mistress. Wasted my ex’s years of his life? How can she say that if I am the one who got fooled and being played with? She only knew us but not our story. I was breathing in and out to calm myself. How much I tried not to say bad things and nasty words but I did. She ended up her message by saying GOD BLESS to me and I ended up our conversation by saying GOD BLESS YOU TOO FOR WHAT YOU’RE DOING. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND”.

My response:

I know my ex is kinda bastard and a cheater but he never showed any disrespect even though we broke up. So I am sure that he’s not behind this. To YOU, you know and I know what you’re doing, nice try. And if you think that I shed a tear, you’re totally wrong. After what you’ve done, you only proved that I am a threat to your relationship and that makes me flattered. If I want to get my ex back, I already did. But don’t you worry, I am not gonna go back under his pants. Sorry not so sorry, for me you look desperate, insecure and living unhappy life. It’s funny how you’ve spent so much of your time trying to pester and ruin my happy life. Why not make your self busy with other things rather than being busy with someone else’s business? What you were doing couldn’t stop me for being happy, a happy person.

This is why I am ignoring and not dealing with this kind of people because I am becoming a MONSTER whenever you hit my button. If you’re true and kind to my face then I will be. But if you don’t have any respect and do something bad about me, I’ll guarantee, I’ll be the same.

I once again prayed to God, to take away all my anger. To destroy and kill the monster in me and I am sure He’ll do. To YOU, I am praying that you’ll find peace and happiness that you don’t have.

I will end up this rant by saying thanks to all my friends and relatives who sent me message and ask if I am ok and to those who listen. You all know who you are and thank you for listening and joining the ride. I am lucky enough to have you all in my life. After this post, I am going to continue living my life to the fullest, chase my dreams and wear my my biggest smile.

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Lin

DOORBELL

Something happened yesterday. I still can’t get over about it so I decided to write this and share with y’all

It was around 7:00 am in PNG (5:00 am PH Time)when I received message from my sister(she’s in Philippines). I was wondering why is she emailing me early in the morning. I mean, it is not the usual time for her to wake up. I thought of like something happened and they wanted to inform me so I checked her message.

Her: “Ate”(big sister)

         “Someone door-belled at 2:00 am, midnight”.

         “I was scared so I sneaked and no one is there”.

I was worried on her first message and I thought of these things: The house where they’re staying is haunted like there’s a ghost something like that or a criminal trying to worm that house and they’ll get robbed. I felt a bundle of nerves whenever I think of what is happening nowadays(referring to PH). I was gonna ask her who might be doing it. But instead of asking her, I continued reading her message.

Her: “I checked the CCTV to find out who it was”.

I was actually expecting that she’ll mention a name. BUT…………

 Her: “……….and I found out that it’s a CAT”.


Hahahahaha, I died laughing because I imagined my sister that she did not get enough sleep. She woke up very early to review the CCTV and only to find out that a cat jumped in to the wall where the doorbell is. Just imagine that, hahahahah. Thanks to the CCTV, we discovered who the burglar is.

Now I know that the doorbell isn’t just for human but for cats too, hahahaha.

Ok case closed.

 

Lin

MY FIRST AND FAILED ATTEMPT ON VLOGGING

Back in 2005 when we don’t have our own computer in the house, I usually go and rent at the Computer Shop just few walks from our house. That’s also when Youtube got introduced to me and I always watch music videos of my favorite band/singer and at the same time, listening to the music. Back then, I also discovered vlog. I am sure that you are familiar with vlog or video blog. Vlog is recorded by blogger to intentionally deliver the information that they purposely introduce to people. It’s blogger’s way to express what they wanted to tell rather than just writing. It’s either product review vlog, “how to” vlog, travel vlog and make up vlog. Just few of my favorite vlogs that I usually watch on Youtube. I got fascinated by Vlogging and it is one of the things I wanted to do. I’ve always thought of that it would be super cool  if I have my own YouTube Channel. I got curious and I had conversation with a blogger friend who happen to share her a vlog recently and I asked,  “Is it easy to vlog?” she answered, “It’s just like talking to yourself”.  A question popped in my mind, “Am I really wanted to do this?”. To be honest, it’s not easy for me although I have experience in editing clips.  #1 I am not confident, I may look awkward on video, #2 I can speak English but not super fluent, I might struggle on delivering the script, #3 I am afraid of people, who will judge, criticize, and say negative things about my video and I don’t want it to happen. Those 3 things are holding me back. But why I don’t give it a try?

Just last weekend, I took photos for my Project #OOTD(see post here). But before taking photos, I put make up and thought of filming it. So I got my phone and set it up. While setting it up, I’m thinking of just taking a normal video or use time lapse. I decided to use time lapse so my video will be in fast motion and I’ll just add music on it. I’ve expected that my video will be in a normal speed but I was wrong. See how my video came up with.

 

It is totally fail, hahaha. From 20 minutes normal time of duration to 34 seconds. That was too fast and you wouldn’t even know how did I put the make up and what products I used. Although that it’s a failed attempt, I am still proud of it ’cause it reminds me that I’ve tried vlogging and I know in myself that this isn’t the last that I’ll try and explore it because, I’ve learn 3 things: #1Do not be afraid to fail, #2 It’s ok to fail but but never ever fail to try and  last, #3 Do not use time lapse, haha.

 

💛

Lin

TORTURED LOVE

I was the one who destroyed our relationship and you were the one who fucked up everything. You were my greatest love, both the brightest and the darkest part of my life and lived a tortured love.

I got lost and confused due to the fact that I have been attached to this love that I wasn’t able to forget. I keep questioning myself, “Is this love is finally coming to an end?”

I know that I’ve failed a thousands times trying to eliminate this love. But now, I am finally choking and killing this love inside me that I kept for so long. It’s completely time to go away and become the better version of myself. It’s time for me to move on once and for all .

THAT TIME


This photo taken back 6 years ago. Back when the only color I know is black – from my teased hair to thick eyeshadow up to my shirt either band tee or not as long as it is black. That time when I’m utterly depressed. That time when I prefer to be alone. That time when I feel that I’m inadequate of my worth. That time when I  hated the world. That time when I was in darkness. But those times had ended when the Lord God lead me out of that darkness into his wonderful light. From black to bright. From depress to joyous. From alone to being loved. From inadequate to adequate. From hatred to acceptance.

“The old has gone the new has come”.

2 Corinthians 5:17