I don’t want to be my old self again when I’ve forgotten the Guy above because of my wrath. I am afraid of myself being out of control again with my emotion. Although, I prayed to Him to give me wisdom and strength before I bent out of shape, I failed Him. I had this regret, “hindi ko na lang sana pinatulan”. I tried to deny the monster in me, but I couldn’t help it. Pinili kong manahimik at umiwas sa lahat ng naririnig ko, ’cause I know that it is the right thing to do. Pero paano kung mapuno ako sa katahimikan ko?

I know my friends out there know what I am talking about here. I’ve reached my boiling point yesterday because someone messaged me on Facebook using my ex boyfriend’s identity. I stop communicating with him for a long time. We’ve been together for how many years so I know that it’s not him. I said to stop messaging me but she didn’t. I know from the start who it is. There’s only one person that I know who will do this. I am not stupid, I know how to play this game. The fake account still keeps on sending me message, asking for the email address and password of the old FB Account that me and my ex boyfriend using when we’re still in the relationshipshit. How annoyingly that she’s forcing me to do so. To tell you honestly, after the break up with my ex, I did not bother to log in to that account, EVER AGAIN. I’ve forgotten everything so how could I? I keep on telling her off to stop pestering me but she keeps on asking the same question all over again and started saying things about me. I ask the fake account, “why were you asking?” and she said that she wanted to deactivate the account so people in their lives won’t be able to see it and they already have new chapter in their lives. And because of that account, they’re always arguing. Well who cares? I am much more cared about how me and my family gonna survive everyday, what clothes I am goin’ to wear, and how I am going to feed my cats. Are you serious with what you’re calling new chapter? If you have new chapter then you shouldn’t be get affected with the past, you shouldn’t be bother with an old account. You even accused me of ruining your relationship and my ex wasted how many years being with me. Do you really know what you’re talking about? In my entire life, I’ve NEVER think of getting involved with someone else’s relationship. In fact, I am more use to being cheated rather than being a mistress. Wasted my ex’s years of his life? How can you say that if I am the one who got fooled and being played with? You only know us but not our story. I was breathing in and out to calm myself. How much I tried not to say bad things and nasty words but I did. She ended up her message by saying GOD BLESS to me and I ended up our conversation by saying GOD BLESS YOU TOO FOR WHAT YOU’RE DOING. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND”.

I know my ex is kinda bastard and a cheater but he never showed any disrespect even though we broke up. So I am sure that he’s not behind this. To YOU, you know and I know what you’re doing, nice try. And if you think that I shed a tear, you’re totally wrong. After what you’ve done, you only proved that I am a threat to your relationship and that makes me flattered. If I want to get my ex back, I already did but don’t worry, I am not gonna go back under his pants. Sorry not so sorry, for me you look desperate, insecure and living unhappy life. It’s funny how you’ve spent so much of your time bullying me. Why not make your self busy with other things rather than being busy with someone else’s life? What you were doing couldn’t stop me for being happy, a happy person.

This is why I am ignoring and not dealing with this kind of people because I am becoming a MONSTER whenever you hit my button. If you’re true and kind to my face then I will be. But if you don’t have any respect and do something bad about me, I’ll guarantee, I’ll be the same.

I once again prayed to God, to take away all my anger. To destroy and kill the monster in me and I am sure He’ll do. To YOU, I am praying that you’ll find peace and happiness that you don’t have.

I will end up this rant by saying thanks to all my friends and relatives who sent me message and ask if I am ok and to those who listen. You all know who you are and thank you for listening and joining the ride. I am lucky enough to have you all in my life. After this post, I am going to continue living my life to the fullest, chase my dreams and wear my my biggest smile.

💛

Lin

THE BLACK PARADE

You may think that wearing head-to-toe black outfit is like portraying Morticia Addams or like attending to funeral or even the goth aesthetic. But hey, let’s change that perspective.

Embracing this all-black-outfit I wore at the Fund Raising event in our Church as part of the committee. It represents beauty, elegance and formality.

It’s not obvious in this photo that I struggled on looking for the attire to perfectly suit the event. I actually pulled out my dresses, tops, and skirts in my closet and did a mix matching.

Worry No More

It looks like I am wearing dress but I am not. The black turtle neck top paired with black skirt made the illusion of like wearing a black dress. #fashionhack

Also, my belly isn’t obvious because wearing black makes me look skinny, hihihi. #fashionillussion

My Luna Bag to add up the all-black vibe.

Outfit Details


What do you think of my all black outfit? I feel confident and comfortable with it. I love it and hope you do too.

BTW, the Fund Raising Event is a success. God really make ways to meet all our needs.

Photo Credits: To my cousin Jaja

HMU: Yours Truly

SLIP DRESS X TURTLE NECK

Whenever I hear “slip wear”, I always think of something slinky and sexy. They tend to look exactly like lingerie. Not to mention, it reminiscent of 90s fashion. Yes, 90s fashion is coming back in style this 2017 and I am sure you know about it. Yay! It is my favorite trend of all because it reminds me of my childhood days.

If you’re following me on instgram(@lingoongeung) I am sure that you’ve already seen me wearing this slip dress that I scored from “ukay”. It is best worn if you layered it over a round neck shirt or a turtle neck. 

Layered with Turtle Neck

I can be grunge in this outfit if only I wore booties or oxfords but I don’t think that it’ll be appropriate to where I am going.

I wore this outfit when I attended our Sunday Service yesterday. I wanted to be simple and not to overdress so I paired it with my fringe slip on plus my Luna Bag.

Outfit Details


I will end this post with outfit details. And also, credit to my cousin Jerr for patiently taking these pics.

💛

Lin

DOORBELL

Something happened yesterday. I still can’t get over about it so I decided to write this and share with y’all

It was around 7:00 am in PNG (5:00 am PH Time)when I received message from my sister(she’s in Philippines). I was wondering why is she emailing me early in the morning. I mean, it is not the usual time for her to wake up. I thought of like something happened and they wanted to inform me so I checked her message.

Her: “Ate”(big sister)

         “Someone door-belled at 2:00 am, midnight”.

         “I was scared so I sneaked and no one is there”.

I was worried on her first message and I thought of these things: The house where they’re staying is haunted like there’s a ghost something like that or a criminal trying to worm that house and they’ll get robbed. I felt a bundle of nerves whenever I think of what is happening nowadays(referring to PH). I was gonna ask her who might be doing it. But instead of asking her, I continued reading her message.

Her: “I checked the CCTV to find out who it was”.

I was actually expecting that she’ll mention a name. BUT…………

 Her: “……….and I found out that it’s a CAT”.


Hahahahaha, I died laughing because I imagined my sister that she did not get enough sleep. She woke up very early to review the CCTV and only to find out that a cat jumped in to the wall where the doorbell is. Just imagine that, hahahahah. Thanks to the CCTV, we discovered who the burglar is.

Now I know that the doorbell isn’t just for human but for cats too, hahahaha.

Ok case closed.

 

Lin

FANTASY

She lives in fantasy, in the world that so unreal. She believes in everything. In all that she see, in all that she hear, in all that she feel.

A Prince promised her of forever. She believes in it. In all that she sees, in all that she hear, in all that she feel. 

But it was only her imagination. There’s no Prince, the Prince was never there, he’s just a ghost. She believed in it, in all that she saw, in all that she heard, in all that she felt.

She escaped in this fantasy, world that is so unreal, full of lies and broken promises. She took her shovel and burried all what she believed in, what she saw, what she heard, what she felt.

“She’s now finally awaken from her FANTASY”

Photograph and HMU: Yours Truly

IMPORTING BLOGGER POST TO WORDPRESS

It’s been more than a year when I immediately packed my bags, move to WordPress and gave up my fashion blog Istaylista(you may want to read the post here why I moved from Blogger to WordPress). Although, it’s a hard decision for me, I didn’t regret anything at all. Frankly, I enjoyed using WordPress and even met bloggers around the world. BUT, I had this thought that I still want to retain all my posts from Blogger and transfer them to WordPress. But how?? I had to figure it out myself how to do that without any stress. 

Ok let us all get to the point here. Presumably, some might have already known these steps but I am sharing these to all who are planning on moving from Blogger to WordPress like what I did. Just follow these 6 easy steps.

  1. Log In to your Blogger Account.
  2. On left side of your Blogger Dashboard, go to Settings > Other.
  3. In the Import, Back Up secton, click “Back up Content”. A small tab will appear indicating a button says “Save to your Computer”.
  4. After saving the Back up Content, log in your WordPress Account.
  5. Go to Settings(left side of My Site section) > Import
  6. Choose Blogger as importer and upload the Back up Content you saved.

And viola! All your Blogger post have migrated to WordPress. You’ll notice that from my 44 entries, it went up to 114. I was overjoyed that I can finally share my 2011- 2013 post to y’all. You can check them if you want to.

Migrating from Blogger to WordPress isn’t difficult right? I hope that the steps I’ve shared helped you out to make the move you want. 

💛

Lin

 

WHAT I REALLY WANTED TO BE?

Have you come to the point that you ask yourself what you wanted to be?

Yes, I am talking about your future self.

I remember back when I graduated in High School, I have to enroll for college – time to decide what course should I take. Honestly, I really don’t know what I really like, I don’t know what I wanted to be. I was undecided, I was unsure.

My dad wants me to take BS Education so I can be a future teacher so I just complied with my Dad just to make him happy. He accompanied me during the enrollment. We inquire at the registrar what the requirements are. Unfortunately, the required average to take that course should be at least 85% of average grade which I failed to acquire. I saw from my Dad’s eyes the frustration. I was guilty, if only I studied hard, if only or should at least be that so-called-good-daughter.

Long story short, I end up taking BS Criminology for a year and did not finish it due to our financial problem so I started working at the age of 17. Just to share with y’all, I’ve worked in different companies – Electrical Company, Government and Clothing Line.

Right now, I am working for almost 5 years as Service Corporate Manager – well thanks that I survived this work in spite of the stress I get everyday. But is this what I really want?

It took time for me to realize what I really wanted to be. I want to be a VISUAL MERCHANDISER of a known clothing brand. In the past few years, I discovered myself that FASHION is my PASSION. I want to showcase my talent, I want to dress up a mannequin, just like a memory from my childhood how I dress up my Barbie.

levis

Photo Credits to the owner

I still keep asking myself, “Is there any possibility or any chance to be a Visual Merchandiser?” I hope so. Still crossing my fingers, hihi. But if this not happen in near future, just be happy and accept it. In reality, there are things that are not just mean to be.

I may not be what I wanted to be but I am happy and contented of what I am right now. That’s enough and I enjoyed everything. I am truly blessed that I have stable job and surviving every single day. I couldn’t ask for more.

Love,

Lin