I don’t want to be my old self again when I’ve forgotten the Guy above because of my wrath. I am afraid of myself being out of control again with my emotion. Although, I prayed to Him to give me wisdom and strength before I bent out of shape, I failed Him. I had this regret, “hindi ko na lang sana pinatulan”. I tried to deny the monster in me, but I couldn’t help it. Pinili kong manahimik at umiwas sa lahat ng naririnig ko, ’cause I know that it is the right thing to do. Pero paano kung mapuno ako sa katahimikan ko?

I know my friends out there know what I am talking about here. I’ve reached my boiling point yesterday because someone messaged me on Facebook using my ex boyfriend’s identity. I stop communicating with him for a long time. We’ve been together for how many years so I know that it’s not him. I said to stop messaging me but she didn’t. I know from the start who it is. There’s only one person that I know who will do this. I am not stupid, I know how to play this game. The fake account still keeps on sending me message, asking for the email address and password of the old FB Account that me and my ex boyfriend using when we’re still in the relationshipshit. How annoyingly that she’s forcing me to do so. To tell you honestly, after the break up with my ex, I did not bother to log in to that account, EVER AGAIN. I’ve forgotten everything so how could I? I keep on telling her off to stop pestering me but she keeps on asking the same question all over again and started saying things about me. I ask the fake account, “why were you asking?” and she said that she wanted to deactivate the account so people in their lives won’t be able to see it and they already have new chapter in their lives. And because of that account, they’re always arguing. Well who cares? I am much more cared about how me and my family gonna survive everyday, what clothes I am goin’ to wear, and how I am going to feed my cats. Are you serious with what you’re calling new chapter? If you have new chapter then you shouldn’t be get affected with the past, you shouldn’t be bother with an old account. You even accused me of ruining your relationship and my ex wasted how many years being with me. Do you really know what you’re talking about? In my entire life, I’ve NEVER think of getting involved with someone else’s relationship. In fact, I am more use to being cheated rather than being a mistress. Wasted my ex’s years of his life? How can you say that if I am the one who got fooled and being played with? You only know us but not our story. I was breathing in and out to calm myself. How much I tried not to say bad things and nasty words but I did. She ended up her message by saying GOD BLESS to me and I ended up our conversation by saying GOD BLESS YOU TOO FOR WHAT YOU’RE DOING. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND”.

I know my ex is kinda bastard and a cheater but he never showed any disrespect even though we broke up. So I am sure that he’s not behind this. To YOU, you know and I know what you’re doing, nice try. And if you think that I shed a tear, you’re totally wrong. After what you’ve done, you only proved that I am a threat to your relationship and that makes me flattered. If I want to get my ex back, I already did but don’t worry, I am not gonna go back under his pants. Sorry not so sorry, for me you look desperate, insecure and living unhappy life. It’s funny how you’ve spent so much of your time bullying me. Why not make your self busy with other things rather than being busy with someone else’s life? What you were doing couldn’t stop me for being happy, a happy person.

This is why I am ignoring and not dealing with this kind of people because I am becoming a MONSTER whenever you hit my button. If you’re true and kind to my face then I will be. But if you don’t have any respect and do something bad about me, I’ll guarantee, I’ll be the same.

I once again prayed to God, to take away all my anger. To destroy and kill the monster in me and I am sure He’ll do. To YOU, I am praying that you’ll find peace and happiness that you don’t have.

I will end up this rant by saying thanks to all my friends and relatives who sent me message and ask if I am ok and to those who listen. You all know who you are and thank you for listening and joining the ride. I am lucky enough to have you all in my life. After this post, I am going to continue living my life to the fullest, chase my dreams and wear my my biggest smile.

💛

Lin

THE BLACK PARADE

You may think that wearing head-to-toe black outfit is like portraying Morticia Addams or like attending to funeral or even the goth aesthetic. But hey, let’s change that perspective.

Embracing this all-black-outfit I wore at the Fund Raising event in our Church as part of the committee. It represents beauty, elegance and formality.

It’s not obvious in this photo that I struggled on looking for the attire to perfectly suit the event. I actually pulled out my dresses, tops, and skirts in my closet and did a mix matching.

Worry No More

It looks like I am wearing dress but I am not. The black turtle neck top paired with black skirt made the illusion of like wearing a black dress. #fashionhack

Also, my belly isn’t obvious because wearing black makes me look skinny, hihihi. #fashionillussion

My Luna Bag to add up the all-black vibe.

Outfit Details


What do you think of my all black outfit? I feel confident and comfortable with it. I love it and hope you do too.

BTW, the Fund Raising Event is a success. God really make ways to meet all our needs.

Photo Credits: To my cousin Jaja

HMU: Yours Truly

SLIP DRESS X TURTLE NECK

Whenever I hear “slip wear”, I always think of something slinky and sexy. They tend to look exactly like lingerie. Not to mention, it reminiscent of 90s fashion. Yes, 90s fashion is coming back in style this 2017 and I am sure you know about it. Yay! It is my favorite trend of all because it reminds me of my childhood days.

If you’re following me on instgram(@lingoongeung) I am sure that you’ve already seen me wearing this slip dress that I scored from “ukay”. It is best worn if you layered it over a round neck shirt or a turtle neck. 

Layered with Turtle Neck

I can be grunge in this outfit if only I wore booties or oxfords but I don’t think that it’ll be appropriate to where I am going.

I wore this outfit when I attended our Sunday Service yesterday. I wanted to be simple and not to overdress so I paired it with my fringe slip on plus my Luna Bag.

Outfit Details


I will end this post with outfit details. And also, credit to my cousin Jerr for patiently taking these pics.

💛

Lin

FANTASY

She lives in fantasy, in the world that so unreal. She believes in everything. In all that she see, in all that she hear, in all that she feel.

A Prince promised her of forever. She believes in it. In all that she sees, in all that she hear, in all that she feel. 

But it was only her imagination. There’s no Prince, the Prince was never there, he’s just a ghost. She believed in it, in all that she saw, in all that she heard, in all that she felt.

She escaped in this fantasy, world that is so unreal, full of lies and broken promises. She took her shovel and burried all what she believed in, what she saw, what she heard, what she felt.

“She’s now finally awaken from her FANTASY”

Photograph and HMU: Yours Truly

I’M BACK WITH SKULLS

Thank God it’s Friday. Friday always reminds me that the following day is weekend, when I can relax, chill and won’t be thinking about work. I always imagine that I’ll get stuck on Weekend, watching movie, cook, eat, sleep and then Saturday, Sunday and Saturday again. But hello, the reality is there’s Weekdays(sigh) and you need to work so you’ll survive(adulting). Ok no more complaints from me and I’ll move on, hihi.

Today, I am back with outfit post. I can’t remember when was my last OOTD post. And it is not only myself who’s back but also my Skull Leggings. I found it together with my old clothes that I am planning to sell. And you know what, I nearly dump this precious leggings of mine. Just so you know, I have this leggings for 5 years and it’s one of my favorite. I featured this leggings twice already here in blog and after ages, I am wearing it again.

Outfit Details

Our office doesn’t require to wear a decent or office attire every Friday so I can be just casual or plain. I paired my skull leggings with a shirt dress ’cause for me, they are great combination.

I don’t have a full outfit photo so I had to take a separate photo of what shoes I am wearing.

Sandals | Toms

How do you like my badass leggings?

That’s all for now. I’m up to preparing a Life Lately post and video of our recent trip to Koitaki Papua New Guinea. Promise I’ll post them the soonest. Hope you have an awesome weekend.

💛

Lin

WHY DID I STOP BLOGGING?

I don’t know where to start, I don’t know where to begin. All, I know is, I have left my blog for a long time. Been MIA for 2 years now here on blogosphere, as in “super tagal“. Ánd now after ages, I’m blogging again. Probably, you have the idea now or clue what would be my today’s blog about. Yes, the title said it right. Why did I stop blogging? Here are some of the reasons, excuses why I did.

1. LAZYNESS. To be perfectly honest, this is the feeling that I really hate about myself. That feeling na “gagawin ko ‘to” and then later on “bukas na lang pala o mamaya na lang pala 😦 in short, procrastinating things and my #1 victim is my blog. I AM A LAZY BLOGGER 😀

2. NO GADGETS. I have a 16GB iPad Mini and Android phone with me. But these techies were not helping me to get onto blog. What I mean is, I still prefer to use a laptop or a desktop, mas madali mag-blog pati mag-attach ng file. I have downloaded a blogger app before on my iPad but decided to delete it çause I have to update the software. I didn’t carry a laptop(just borrowed my Aunt’s laptop today) with me or I don’t have my own desktop computer at home. We have at the office but I don’t want to use it to logged in to social networking etc. I am planning to get a netbook for my personal use, but still, UNDECIDED -_-

3. WORKING FULL TIME. If you were my avid follower(loljk), I mean if we are friends on FB, you know that I am working overseas. Yes, been working for almost 2 years now as a Service Corporate Manager here in Port Moresby-Papua New Guinea. 9 hours Monday – Friday and 4 hrs every Saturday. I don’t have spare time to update my blog, pag-uwi galing work, gusto ko kain at matulog na lang or do the laundry, NO TIME FOR BLOGGING. Lots of paper works and a lot of pressure 😦 But despite of preassure and my Boss’ grumpiness, I’ll say that, I am so lucky with my current job. Everything were paid off by the company, such as accommodation, electric bills, vehicle provided by the company, even the fuel, and most of all, the expensive airfare, hihihi. I have a 3-year contract here and my Boss is planning to renew it for another 3 years. This is a blessing 🙂 I LOVE MY JOB AND THE PEOPLE I’M WORKING WITH.

4. THE PLACE. I am currently staying with my Aunt and her family. She doesn’t want me to live by myself. Hindi ko alam kung nagwo-worry ba siya na magutom ako, ‘cause I don’t know how to cook, hahahaha. Thank you Aunt Quel for letting me stay in your house and for getting me fat, lol. But seriously, the place is not safe to walk on the street especially with the expatriate like me, as in NO NO(you’ll know why when you try to live here in PNG)! You can’t just take photo on streets for your OOTD like what other bloggers do. Unlike in Phil, when you can just walk anytime you want and capture every moment of your life. But PNG is a nice place, the trees, plants and roads, na parang nasa ibang parte ka lang ng Pilipinas. I LOVE PNG, THIS IS MY SECOND HOME.

5. BUSINESS. Sissy and I have a small online business. We’re selling Fashionable Clothes and Kawaii Purses. We’re still thinkng what would be the next item we’re gonna put in our store. If you’re interested click here and here. Sissy, is the one who’s responsible on meeting the suppliers and our buyers and I am the one who’s dealing with the buyers for their queries(magaling daw ako sa sales talk) also, with our shops concept(need ito sa business para ma-attract ang mga buyers, lol). I’m giving a little time in our business after work. We’re puttig the money we earned into our savings.  Do you think that Sissy and I will be GOOD BUSINESS WOMEN?

6. FACEBOOK AND INSTAGRAM AS A BLOG. Why would I use Blog if I can post and share everyday my short stories on IG and FB? If you’re reading my blog before, you already knew that I’m into fashion. I like posting OOTD’s keme. I’ve got a lot of OOTD photos saved into my iPad. But as I’ve told you, I have no time to post and to tell all my strange stories, lol. But all of them were posted on IG, click here. I’d like to take this opportunity to ask everybody(if you’re interested) to FOLLOW ME ON IG 😀

7. NO ONE IS HERE ON BLOG. There is still some but none of my friends are blogging 😦 Probably, there are some visiting my blog or if there’s someone who recommended my page or if someone shares my page or if someone use the search engines or whatsover. I’M A LONER HERE ON BLOGOSPHERE.

8. BLOGGING IS NOT MY PRIORITY. I love writing and telling stories but sorry to say that blogging is not my priority. Did you get my point in here? I wanted to concentrate/focus with my work and business so I can provide our financial needs. And as a responsible human being(lol), my priority is my family. They are the reason why I work so hard. I want to give them all their needs, I want my two brothers to finish their studies, planning to go with them in Hongkong Disneyland someday, planning to renovate/rebuild our home. These were one of my plans, I keep crossing my fingers and praying always to G. I’LL KEEP RUNNING AND CHASE ALL MY DREAMS.

Do you accept all my excuses? Or, is it too little to late to explain?

In two years, I’ll say that I’ve learned a lot of things, lalo na yung pananaw sa buhay. Not becoming worst but I can proudly say BETTER 🙂

Now, I don’t know if I’ll continue blogging or this would be my last post. Bye for now.

@lingoongeung